Thursday, 11 June 2015

She used to just stand there and stare

I haven’t heard from Isabelle. Not sure what that is about. Lucy hasn’t either from what she says. We have spent the last few days just goofing off, so she isn’t covering that up. We spoke about it and we think that Isabelle will show up next time she needs to set something in motion. Whatever happened with Boss must of been what she wanted to happen, but she found me useful enough to keep me around. I guess, keep me around, my money is running low and if she doesn’t come up with something soon I’m going to have to get a real job.

Isabelle’s personality seems to mimic her physical presence. Only telling you what you need to know and only moving when needed to. Which means that whatever happened the last few weeks, I know everything she thinks I need to know. Lucy and I think that the whole blog is/was a set up to get vampires to notice enough to read Lucy’s interview. That Lucy has been fed some information that they want but not enough for Lucy to know what it is, just enough for them to come out of the woods to get it. Which they tried, Identifying themselves enough for Isabelle to do something with them.

Good guess? Not sure, feel free to comment and let me know your thoughts. After all who the hell knows the minds of crazy old blood suckers. Who? Van Helsing would. Not that crap Van Helsing from this movie that Lucy made me watch tonight. Come to think of it Van Helsing in any of his displays over the years probably wouldn’t. Never mind. I will say in that crap movie I did like some of the creepier aspects of how they displayed vampires. Long, thin, Lair of the White Worm style fangs for example. All the toys however turn me off, no matter how action film it makes it. Lucy said she saw it in the theater in 2004 and thought Kate was worth a look even if the harpy like vampires were kinda stupid. I asked her if vampires could grow wings like that and she said she hadn’t seen anything of the sort.

Then again, speaking of Lair of the White Worm, for some reason I’ve never been able to finish that movie even after two of the main actors became house hold names, and despite my interest in vampires. Maybe we should try to watch it, Lucy doesn’t even know what it is!

Jesus is still missing as far as I know. We have no clue on where to look next. Isabelle might but she is probably standing in a basement somewhere staring at the wall thinking of how her plans will play out next year. …

Tuesday, 9 June 2015

We Both Know You Could Deflate

Lucy likes Tori Amos. I’m not sure we can be friends. I mean there is a reason when you go to Tori’s website it is mostly all old artwork and articles on old work she has made. Anyways, I kid, I can be friends with a Tori fan but her making me listen to Scarlet’s Walk earlier tonight was almost just as bad as getting shot in the gut.

It started simple this evening. I picked up the graphic novel, The Loaded Bible by Tim Seeley, for my Kindle and finally got around to reading it.
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When Lucy woke up I showed her and we both laughed so hard about the concept that we both had to read it. Sucks it ended at the end of part two. It is just the type of vampire cheese that I dig. Serious over use of everything stereotyped in these type of stories with a heavy dose of irreverence to make me not want to read it, but so fun that I had too. I love going against my instinctual good taste. My only complaint really is that Lilith is a monkey. Seriously. Science people.

Lucy thought the book was entertaining but she digs on more romantic or at least straight forward vampire fiction so it wasn’t her bag.

Then we started talking more about the definition of vampire and somehow it skipped to psychic/emotional/energy vampires, and then how artist who try to suck the blood from their past success instead of blazing new paths are vampires. Minds are awesome. We never did settle on how we would define a vampire but we have decided to start looking into that together. Possibly watching movies, reading books and then posting our opinions here for the record (or even comment from readers). Lucy says I need something to fill the space on the blog while I’m not out actively getting shot (oh it is good to have a new running joke).

So we’ll see if that happens. I kinda hope it does. There would be worse things than sitting around watching TV with Lucy and then debating them over wine and/or vodka.

As for the rest of what has been happening. Not sure what to tell you dear reader. I’m an outsider with the facade of being a journalist. I could go knock on doors but I won’t get any information until they decide to give it to me.

I have some theories about what is going on. I’ll write about them later. Right now Lucy and I are going to go get milk shakes. Fuck you 80 degree humid weather, we have ice cream!

June 8th 2015

A reader pointed out to me the other day that I’m a very angry person. They are not wrong. I am angry. I’m very glad that is coming across on this blog. I would hate for anyone to get the wrong impression. I’m cynical, angry, disgusted, bored, and tired. Specially with vampires. If it wasn’t for Isabelle contacting me and putting me up for this blog job I would of cashed in my chips with those assholes after what Jesus did to me last month. If it wasn’t for Lucy tonight I would of cashed in my chips with Isabelle.

I don’t trust vampires, you all know that by now. The long game they play means that they are not strangers to deep imbeds of minions. Even the shit hole ones I’ve known via Jesus all play these game. The older and more stable ones play them really well. It’s like the cold war on crack that never wears off.. I would imagine. Masks are their bag, I get that, so I don’t trust them on principle.

Except Lucy.

So here is the deal. Suzanne called the cab I came home in tonight. I’m still a little sore and walking slow but otherwise I’m fine. Suzanne said that I’m lucky nothing vital was hit and that I should be one hundred percent soon. I say she is bullshitting me because I seem to of gotten better faster than getting hit by a bullet just a few inches from my belly button should be healing. Suzanne is a miracle worker. I should of called her Jesus.

I took my time enjoying the evening air. It’s in the 80s here but no rain, and the slight breeze makes it alright. Normally I take the stairs to my floor but today due to my injury I took the elevator. The minute the doors opened I knew Lucy was in my place.

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There is the song that was blaring down the hall from the door to my loft as the doors on the elevator opened. Typical I thought as I slowly walked toward the source. Drain the Blood. Vampire. Lucy. Yet you know how when you listen to the lyrics of a song at any given time they can almost be about that time. I’ve never bothered to think about those lyrics but they seemed appropriate to me right now. As I opened the door, I think they seemed more appropriate to Lucy.

In the middle of my living area she was rocking out like a teenager who just found their new jam. Air guitar, slamming walls, springing off couches, screaming. With this loud of music I’m not sure she even heard me open the door. Which should tell you how loud it was. Her antics even brought to an even more extreme by her dressing almost just like Brody Dalle (the lead singer).

I laughed. She heard me, and just like a teenager, which I remind you she almost looks like, she jumped and stopped immediately. I thought for a moment that she was genuinely embarrassed. She reached up and took off her black wig. We looked at each other not speaking while she shook out her red locks.

Finally she said, “fuck you”.

I went over and turned off the record player, which had moved onto Dismantle Me . “Yeah Fuck me” I said in the silence and crashed down into my ratty old couch.

She sat down next to me but we didn’t speak for a long time. I stared up at the pattern on the ceiling, that popcorny fuzzy crap on all modern ceilings. I thought about how maybe I shouldn’t of come back. That I could of just disappeared. The last month has been exhausting. Then she spoke.

“You are right you know, about vampires. We all deserve to get what is coming to us, sooner than later. ” I turned and looked at her while she continued. “I was mad at you for saying that I deserved it but you are right. I can’t be mad at you for saying what I know in my heart to be true.”

She looks away. “I want to be worthy of being someone you trust.”

“You play the long game.” I said.

She shook her head no, “We all do. Even you. You dream your plans up in days and years, we dream them up in decades if we want to, longer sometimes. It doesn’t mean our plans, or dreams are a game anymore than yours.”

“you say we like you are part of something”

“I don’t know anymore. The monster you called Boss and his friends got me thinking. I don’t know what I’m a part of.”

She bites her lower lip. I sat and watched her do that and for once in my vampire disdaining years my first thought wasn’t, “shes playing me.” Instead it was “how many years before the only time she does that is when she is playing someone”. Then doubt set more firm in me. I thought, Lucy with her power was only my age, she might honestly be still a person behind the monster.

I reached out and touched a ring of her hair. “Good thing you hang out with a journalist, we can find that out.” I said.

My weak smile caught her eyes and she lit up like Christmas.

We have spent the last few hours talking about my record collection, playing loud music and being young again. I haven’t felt this good around another person in a long time.

I’m sure it won’t last. After all I am a very angry person.

Friday, 5 June 2015

Catching You Up

Then Suzanne was there. Turns out she had been tailing me that morning. To hear her tell what happened is to be bored to pieces.

She had been watching the warehouse all day. Fell asleep in her car. Heard gun shots, waited until she thought the coast was clear, came in and drug my almost dead body back up the hill to her place where she took care of my wound.

I’d like to cry bullshit so many times while reading that paragraph that the amount of bullshits would be more words than I just wrote. Seriously. She won’t tell me more. To be honest I’m not going to push her, she has been a mystery for the last few years. A mystery that has now directly saved my life twice, and allowed my life to be saved a few more times beyond that.

Still I’m getting fed up with her ignoring my questions, giving me more coffee and telling me to rest. I have no clue how she fits into all this. All I know is I’m grateful for her so I’m not going to reveal any of her details until she tells me I can.

I’ve been recovering this week in a place she has put me to keep me safe. I’m hoping she lets me go soon but at least I’m online again. I have no clue what I’m going to do once I can get up and around.

Any suggestions?

Sunday Part Two

I give vampires a lot of shit for being stupid, but walking out of my safe home to go to a warehouse in the east bottoms is a bit more stupid. Specially when a vampire just had her faced kicked in while at said warehouse. I’m not known for being overly intelligent in times of emotional stress, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this… reckless.

My car is still in holding by our lovely city because I’ve been a bit preoccupied to go and rescue it, so I took Lucy’s. You can’t go anywhere in this city without car. City transportation is spotty, it takes forever to call a cab and the place is so spread out you can’t walk anywhere. The good part about this is that you can spot someone following you a bit easier than in bigger cities. I would imagine that is. I’ve never been followed around a bigger city. Which is why I’m pretty sure I had a tail all the way there.

I didn’t try to avoid them. Who knew, they could be protection from Isabelle, and I wasn’t going to the warehouse to lay down some woop ass. I was going there as a reporter, a citizen journalist, a numskull. I just wanted answers. Was I pissed that they beat Lucy, yes, but she was a vampire, I can’t get too bent out of shape when a blood drinker gets beat up. Which has always been something that bothers me about vampire culture. Vamps deserve a bit of pay pack in my opinion, even the ‘good’ ones. Why are what essentially rapist so cool in those books and movies? It’s like the abusive boyfriend that the girl always welcomes back. It’s serious mental damage. Not that it has to be girls getting abused, but in the vamp fiction it most often is. At least we live in a Christian mindset society where no matter how much killing and stealing you do, as long as you seek forgiveness you will be accepted. Right Buffy… or just about any character who lets a vampire hang out with them. Sorry I don’t play like that. The next person I meet who says Lestat is cool is getting my fingers in their fucking nose as I try to finger bang some sense into their brain.

Ok sorry.. Ranting.. back to what matters.

The east bottoms are right below Cliff Drive. I just realized that while writing this. That makes a bit more sense now that I have time to think about it. Anyways I’m not afraid of the East Bottoms. It’s a bunch of broke working class people living in a neighborhood left to decay and be torn down decades ago. In general I am not scared of poor neighborhoods even if most my friends from college wouldn’t of set foot there. It helps that one of the cities biggest bars is now located in the middle of the poverty. What is left of the industry there is still chugging away, so the place has it’s own feel, it’s own vibe, which is different from the rest of the city.

It’s also very small. I found my address without having to do a loop around the area. On Sunday morning the place seems still. Which is odd to me since I had only been to the area before at night. Usually this street is fairly busy with parking for the club down the way. Wonder if the closeness of this warehouse to the saloon has a connection? Probably nothing, it’s too obvious.

The warehouse is a cinder block built affair. Solid build with those glass blocks that are frosted and hard to see through in some windows. Shades and bars on the others. No cars were parked by it when I drove by but I parked down the street in the neighbor hood anyway. There was no sign of the person following me.

I don’t sneak, or skulk or any word that implies a less than obvious approach. It’s just not in my nature. I’m the type of person that walks up and tells you to stuff yourself if you need to be stuffed, or to kiss you when I want a kiss. It’s probably why I have a hard time keeping a job. I walked up to this building as if I owned it, went straight to the front door and walked in.

Literally walked in. It was unlocked. I was just trying to keep up appearances, I had this thing planned about looking like I lost my keys when it was locked so no one watching would suspect me as being a crook. Ha, I’m a bad liar and actor. Which became apparent the minute I was in the barren little front office face to face with a guy looking up from being midway through a line of meth. Freaking meth heads. A Metallica listening meth head, not an Orb listening meth head from the looks of his worn out Black Album t-shirt. I hate those types. Before he could open his sped up pea of a brain hole I started acting.

“Hi, My name is Alex and I’m doing a report on the socioeconomic conditions of the area, I was wondering if anyone in this business might be interested in taking part.”

I don’t think the guy was prepared for that line of dialogue.

“aaa… no” He stammered, kinda looking around all guilty. “Yo Johnny” he called out. I had my hand on the door knob as ‘johnny’ came out of the back room. Large guy, probably was built once, but time has dragged that body down into the perfect canvas for a bunch of blurring prison tattoos. I let go of the handle. Running wouldn’t get me what I want.

Johnny says, “you’re early” as he looks me up and down. “Boss said you’d be here after lunch at the earliest. That’s alright. We can wait.” He nodded back toward the door he came out of and then walked back through it. I looked at the first guy, he pointed to the door. That was way too easy.

The main warehouse was pretty empty. A piece of cardboard was leaning against the wall, filthy with oil or blood. A stack of clean cardboard next to it, and a metal chair. The chair looked shiny, like it had recently been washed. Which explains the water in the middle of the concrete floor and a third guy down on the ground give it a good scrub.

Johnny pulls the chair over near the guy cleaning. “a seat if you want it. It’s going to be a long day if you want to talk to the boss”.

“Why’s that? Meetings?”

“Yeah, meetings, wise ass.”

“Why did you not expect me until after lunch?”

Silence is not always golden. In this case its the color of anger, my anger. Seriously, he told me I needed to wait and then were all “oh let’s just watch my buddy clean up the blood off the floor and ignore the person talking to me”. I wasn’t going to let it show. I was trying my hardest to play this cool.

“So I bet you liked that Metallica youtube video that was going around the other week? The one where they replaced the snair drum of Master of Puppets with the St Anguish version?

Johnny looks up at me and his face reads “dumbass” as his lips say “St Anger, It’s St Anger, and what makes you think we are fans?”

“You just told me. So did you listen?”

“Yeah, but what does that have to do with the price of death?”

“I haven’t heard it said that way before.”

He smiles. I continued, “nothing, just making small talk since you said it’ll be awhile. If it is going to take all day I can come back. I don’t mind at all.”

They both looked up at me, serious faces, like I just triggered their punching mechanism. “Boss minds, have a seat.”

“No thanks. So how do you know I’m the right person? I don’t even know who ‘Boss’ is?”

“You the right person, you’re that blogger.”

“I prefer Web Journalist, but that isn’t here or there. I’ve only been on the job a week or so, I’m surprised you have read my work.”

“I haven’t, Boss just told us what you looked like and to hold you if you showed up.”

“you like your boss a lot to spend the day with me in this soon to be moist and muggy building”

“We like him enough, now shut up.”

Which put the end of me trying to be friendly. The rest of the day we spent ignoring each other, studying the cracks in the cement and watching the floor dry. They did provide me a great lunch of McDonald’s dollar menu items. However I paid for it, they just went and got it. As the sun started to set they moved a piece of card board to the center of the room and placed the chair on it. My feet were really tired from standing all day so I surprised them and had a sit.

Johnny laughed. I’m glad he found it as funny as I did.

Not long after that Boss showed up. Boss is old school vampire. I knew that from the get go. It wasn’t just my spider senses, it was how much his movements were like Isabelle’s, perfect, practiced every muscle moved to provide the most efficient use of itself. It’s nothing that screams “look at me I’m a monster!” but it does help give it away.

He just stared at me,hands behind his back, soaking me in, trying to get inside my head. Which he couldn’t, and a slight twitch of his eye informed me when he had given up. I’m so glad I know that about myself now.

“so” I said breaking the silence. “I know why I want to be here but I have no clue why you want me here, care to fill me in.”

“I wanted to meet you, Alex” He actually didn’t say Alex, he called me by my proper name with a proper honorific but you know the drill by now, not giving away my ID that easy.

“I’m flattered, most people just want to tell me to fuck off.” Johnny smiles, other dude flinches, and Boss just stares.

Boss brings his hands before him, holding a small revolver. Nothing really scares me about getting hurt but getting dead kinda does. Guns kill people in my mind so immediately I start getting nervous, and Boss, well Boss smiles. Which double creeped me out.

“I thought this might be a better weapon against you. It appears I am right.”

“Wait a minute, you don’t need a gun. I’m here just to figure out what is going on, no need to fucking shoot anyone.”

“What if I want to shoot someone? What if I want to shoot you?”

“Then I can’t stop you, crazy people do what they please in this world.”

“I tell you what Alex, you can ask me questions, but for every question you ask me, I’ll ask you one. If I don’t like your answer, I shoot you.”

“That doesn’t sound fair.”

“Your world isn’t fair.”

“What did you want to know from Lucy?”

“Isabelle raised her with strange notions about our kind. I wanted to know what those notions were and why she was taught them.”

“Is that it?”

“Is that another questions?”

“No!”

“Are you going to.. blog.. more of the interview and is there more about Lucy’s view on our kind?”

“Yeah I’ll probably type the rest up, but no, we really didn’t talk about anything like that afterward. Why are Lucy’s “Strange Notions” so important to you?”

“Because they could lead to lost ideas. Things no one has heard about in a few decades. What is Isabelle’s trying to do with you and your website?”

“I don’t know”

BANG. That is the first time he shot me. It just grazed my leg and my reaction knocked me out of the chair and onto the floor. I was more scared than hurt. I started screaming “oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck” but realized it was only a slight cut pretty quickly. Johnny and Other dude were smirking, trying not to laugh. Boss was standing in the exact same position, a fucking statue with a warm gun.

“Although I think you are correct that you don’t know, I didn’t like your answer.”

“so you shoot me even if you are disappointed?”

“yes. Why did you agree to work for Isabelle?”

“Fuck, this isn’t over yet? Shit.” I sat up on the floor, kind of grateful of the cardboard being down there. “I have nothing better to do. I’d been following Jesus for a few years.. not following following but just trying to figure shit out. Nothing brilliant just trying to figure shit out.” He didn’t respond with the gun or his mouth. “So everything Lucy told me is false?”

“Most likely, although in my years I have learned to not disregard legend. What made you so I can not persuade you?”

“I have no fucking clue.”

Then he shot me in my stomach. It felt like that area was getting hammered by a truck. I fell back onto the floor and was in too much pain to really pay attention to what happened next. I have this impression of Boss saying something to Johnny and the other dude, before I blacked out but I was so much in shock that I was shot that I have no clue if I remembered that correctly.

Wednesday, 3 June 2015

Sunday Part One

I’m right in the middle of a fucking information war. You’d think I would be used as one of the guns in this war but I’m not. I’m being used as a nail in one great big house of blood and bile. I could of tried harder to update this blog before now but you know what, I hate being a tool. I almost didn’t return to it, but I also hate being a quitter. I hate a lot, if you haven’t noticed. Hate is something that comes easy to me. I’m like a mother fucking Sith Lord, I’m so full of it. Vampires give me so many reasons to hate, but you know what, fuck them. They wish they could be half as awesome as they think they are. I’m going to use this blog to light-saber their asses.

I wrote that earlier. I think maybe I need to get my emotions under control but in the spirit of openness I’m leaving it at the head of this post because at least it is honest somewhere.

Sunday Night, I left my loft like I said I would. Like they knew I would, obviously from reading the blog. My thoughts were kind of a mess. Why was I suppose to write this? What was Isabelle’s master plan? Vampires are like a slow molasses made of pure refined plotting. They move so damn slow you forget they are even moving sometimes. The attack the other day was fast and seemed rash on the outside but you bet that it is part of a long term scheme. This blog is part of a long term scheme. I know they will never tell me what is really going on. Fucking vampires.

Too bad vampires also seem to think that humans are stupid. I think if they ever had to face humans in mass they’d lose simply because of that. They think they are so superior that they overlook us. I realized after talking to Lucy that they can come back and erase from us what they don’t want us to recall so they don’t really think to do a lot of preventative steps. They collect information and then debate forever what to do about it. Once they decide they come in with their vamp magic and do what they do. Erase minds, enslave souls, get hammered on power.

And I realized all this while drunk on vodka straight from the bottle, not even the good stuff. Eat that haters.

I left my loft determined to find Isabelle and Lucy and have them lay out their cards. After all what is the point of being a vampire reporter if there is nothing to report.

I should of known that something had changed on the back end of this mystery when the cop was gone when I walked outside. Also it had stopped raining. The Gods must of been trying to tell me something.

Then I spent the next night traveling to all the places I knew to look for vampires but no luck. No luck at all. I could of screamed, and I did end up punching a mail box. Remind me not to punch metal when angry. I must of looked like a fool holding my nearly broken hand in the middle of Westport.

Shit finally started hitting the fan when I stumbled back into my loft. I was so exhausted from nothing happening that finding Lucy curled up in my bed, her clothing soaked in blood and her skin dry and shriveled on her bones, made me feel like cheering. Of course I didn’t. Lucy had been nice to me the last few days so I immediately switched into caring mode.

She could barely talk. Whatever power she has must of healed any damage that had been done to her but it took a toll on her. I helped her get into the closet, but I was not about to let her have any of my blood. She never asked for it.

Once safe in the closet she looked up at me and told me what had happened in this soft and defeated voice. I had to get close to hear her.

“They are not after you. They consider you just another vampire fan writing a blog that no one will read.”

“well they got part of that right” I tried to make Lucy laugh, and it almost worked.

“They came for me because of what I said in the interview. They took me to some warehouse. A warehouse. It was like a a a bad movie. They thought I knew some kind of secrets, some kind..of.. magic or something. It was so confusing. They beat me and bled me when I didn’t know what to tell them.”

“why did they let you go?”

“I think they are waiting… waiting to see if Isabelle comes to me. Waiting for you to write about this so she comes. I think they think she knows a secret or something that they want…I’m so confused.”

Which dear reader is one reason you haven’t heard from me. I’m not going to write something to help out anyone. Sorry.

Lucy seemed to be falling asleep as the sun started to rise. Good for her, she needed her rest. I need something also. I needed answers.

“Lucy, what warehouse?”

Then she gave me the address. Not the actual address, she gave me the street number, said it was really big on a blue overhang above the door. Said it was in the East Bottoms near Knuckleheads Saloon. Good enough for me.

Monday, 1 June 2015

June 1st 2015

In her interview Lucy talks a lot about groups of vampires with different ideologies who struggle with each other from time to time. Even going so far as to call this town ‘hard’. I think what she meant to say was “Oh Alex this town is filled with psychopathic shit talkers with the power of gods who still like to shoot people for fun”. I mean the shear idea that shooting people is a useful tool when you have that type of power speaks more to their psychosis than it does to anything else.

Which is my way of saying that I’m not happy about being shot.

Just thought I’d log on and update those few actual people who read this. I’m not going to go into details until I know for sure that I have a way out of my hidey-hole. I’m currently safe, will update as soon as I can.