Friday, 5 June 2015

Catching You Up

Then Suzanne was there. Turns out she had been tailing me that morning. To hear her tell what happened is to be bored to pieces.

She had been watching the warehouse all day. Fell asleep in her car. Heard gun shots, waited until she thought the coast was clear, came in and drug my almost dead body back up the hill to her place where she took care of my wound.

I’d like to cry bullshit so many times while reading that paragraph that the amount of bullshits would be more words than I just wrote. Seriously. She won’t tell me more. To be honest I’m not going to push her, she has been a mystery for the last few years. A mystery that has now directly saved my life twice, and allowed my life to be saved a few more times beyond that.

Still I’m getting fed up with her ignoring my questions, giving me more coffee and telling me to rest. I have no clue how she fits into all this. All I know is I’m grateful for her so I’m not going to reveal any of her details until she tells me I can.

I’ve been recovering this week in a place she has put me to keep me safe. I’m hoping she lets me go soon but at least I’m online again. I have no clue what I’m going to do once I can get up and around.

Any suggestions?

Sunday Part Two

I give vampires a lot of shit for being stupid, but walking out of my safe home to go to a warehouse in the east bottoms is a bit more stupid. Specially when a vampire just had her faced kicked in while at said warehouse. I’m not known for being overly intelligent in times of emotional stress, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this… reckless.

My car is still in holding by our lovely city because I’ve been a bit preoccupied to go and rescue it, so I took Lucy’s. You can’t go anywhere in this city without car. City transportation is spotty, it takes forever to call a cab and the place is so spread out you can’t walk anywhere. The good part about this is that you can spot someone following you a bit easier than in bigger cities. I would imagine that is. I’ve never been followed around a bigger city. Which is why I’m pretty sure I had a tail all the way there.

I didn’t try to avoid them. Who knew, they could be protection from Isabelle, and I wasn’t going to the warehouse to lay down some woop ass. I was going there as a reporter, a citizen journalist, a numskull. I just wanted answers. Was I pissed that they beat Lucy, yes, but she was a vampire, I can’t get too bent out of shape when a blood drinker gets beat up. Which has always been something that bothers me about vampire culture. Vamps deserve a bit of pay pack in my opinion, even the ‘good’ ones. Why are what essentially rapist so cool in those books and movies? It’s like the abusive boyfriend that the girl always welcomes back. It’s serious mental damage. Not that it has to be girls getting abused, but in the vamp fiction it most often is. At least we live in a Christian mindset society where no matter how much killing and stealing you do, as long as you seek forgiveness you will be accepted. Right Buffy… or just about any character who lets a vampire hang out with them. Sorry I don’t play like that. The next person I meet who says Lestat is cool is getting my fingers in their fucking nose as I try to finger bang some sense into their brain.

Ok sorry.. Ranting.. back to what matters.

The east bottoms are right below Cliff Drive. I just realized that while writing this. That makes a bit more sense now that I have time to think about it. Anyways I’m not afraid of the East Bottoms. It’s a bunch of broke working class people living in a neighborhood left to decay and be torn down decades ago. In general I am not scared of poor neighborhoods even if most my friends from college wouldn’t of set foot there. It helps that one of the cities biggest bars is now located in the middle of the poverty. What is left of the industry there is still chugging away, so the place has it’s own feel, it’s own vibe, which is different from the rest of the city.

It’s also very small. I found my address without having to do a loop around the area. On Sunday morning the place seems still. Which is odd to me since I had only been to the area before at night. Usually this street is fairly busy with parking for the club down the way. Wonder if the closeness of this warehouse to the saloon has a connection? Probably nothing, it’s too obvious.

The warehouse is a cinder block built affair. Solid build with those glass blocks that are frosted and hard to see through in some windows. Shades and bars on the others. No cars were parked by it when I drove by but I parked down the street in the neighbor hood anyway. There was no sign of the person following me.

I don’t sneak, or skulk or any word that implies a less than obvious approach. It’s just not in my nature. I’m the type of person that walks up and tells you to stuff yourself if you need to be stuffed, or to kiss you when I want a kiss. It’s probably why I have a hard time keeping a job. I walked up to this building as if I owned it, went straight to the front door and walked in.

Literally walked in. It was unlocked. I was just trying to keep up appearances, I had this thing planned about looking like I lost my keys when it was locked so no one watching would suspect me as being a crook. Ha, I’m a bad liar and actor. Which became apparent the minute I was in the barren little front office face to face with a guy looking up from being midway through a line of meth. Freaking meth heads. A Metallica listening meth head, not an Orb listening meth head from the looks of his worn out Black Album t-shirt. I hate those types. Before he could open his sped up pea of a brain hole I started acting.

“Hi, My name is Alex and I’m doing a report on the socioeconomic conditions of the area, I was wondering if anyone in this business might be interested in taking part.”

I don’t think the guy was prepared for that line of dialogue.

“aaa… no” He stammered, kinda looking around all guilty. “Yo Johnny” he called out. I had my hand on the door knob as ‘johnny’ came out of the back room. Large guy, probably was built once, but time has dragged that body down into the perfect canvas for a bunch of blurring prison tattoos. I let go of the handle. Running wouldn’t get me what I want.

Johnny says, “you’re early” as he looks me up and down. “Boss said you’d be here after lunch at the earliest. That’s alright. We can wait.” He nodded back toward the door he came out of and then walked back through it. I looked at the first guy, he pointed to the door. That was way too easy.

The main warehouse was pretty empty. A piece of cardboard was leaning against the wall, filthy with oil or blood. A stack of clean cardboard next to it, and a metal chair. The chair looked shiny, like it had recently been washed. Which explains the water in the middle of the concrete floor and a third guy down on the ground give it a good scrub.

Johnny pulls the chair over near the guy cleaning. “a seat if you want it. It’s going to be a long day if you want to talk to the boss”.

“Why’s that? Meetings?”

“Yeah, meetings, wise ass.”

“Why did you not expect me until after lunch?”

Silence is not always golden. In this case its the color of anger, my anger. Seriously, he told me I needed to wait and then were all “oh let’s just watch my buddy clean up the blood off the floor and ignore the person talking to me”. I wasn’t going to let it show. I was trying my hardest to play this cool.

“So I bet you liked that Metallica youtube video that was going around the other week? The one where they replaced the snair drum of Master of Puppets with the St Anguish version?

Johnny looks up at me and his face reads “dumbass” as his lips say “St Anger, It’s St Anger, and what makes you think we are fans?”

“You just told me. So did you listen?”

“Yeah, but what does that have to do with the price of death?”

“I haven’t heard it said that way before.”

He smiles. I continued, “nothing, just making small talk since you said it’ll be awhile. If it is going to take all day I can come back. I don’t mind at all.”

They both looked up at me, serious faces, like I just triggered their punching mechanism. “Boss minds, have a seat.”

“No thanks. So how do you know I’m the right person? I don’t even know who ‘Boss’ is?”

“You the right person, you’re that blogger.”

“I prefer Web Journalist, but that isn’t here or there. I’ve only been on the job a week or so, I’m surprised you have read my work.”

“I haven’t, Boss just told us what you looked like and to hold you if you showed up.”

“you like your boss a lot to spend the day with me in this soon to be moist and muggy building”

“We like him enough, now shut up.”

Which put the end of me trying to be friendly. The rest of the day we spent ignoring each other, studying the cracks in the cement and watching the floor dry. They did provide me a great lunch of McDonald’s dollar menu items. However I paid for it, they just went and got it. As the sun started to set they moved a piece of card board to the center of the room and placed the chair on it. My feet were really tired from standing all day so I surprised them and had a sit.

Johnny laughed. I’m glad he found it as funny as I did.

Not long after that Boss showed up. Boss is old school vampire. I knew that from the get go. It wasn’t just my spider senses, it was how much his movements were like Isabelle’s, perfect, practiced every muscle moved to provide the most efficient use of itself. It’s nothing that screams “look at me I’m a monster!” but it does help give it away.

He just stared at me,hands behind his back, soaking me in, trying to get inside my head. Which he couldn’t, and a slight twitch of his eye informed me when he had given up. I’m so glad I know that about myself now.

“so” I said breaking the silence. “I know why I want to be here but I have no clue why you want me here, care to fill me in.”

“I wanted to meet you, Alex” He actually didn’t say Alex, he called me by my proper name with a proper honorific but you know the drill by now, not giving away my ID that easy.

“I’m flattered, most people just want to tell me to fuck off.” Johnny smiles, other dude flinches, and Boss just stares.

Boss brings his hands before him, holding a small revolver. Nothing really scares me about getting hurt but getting dead kinda does. Guns kill people in my mind so immediately I start getting nervous, and Boss, well Boss smiles. Which double creeped me out.

“I thought this might be a better weapon against you. It appears I am right.”

“Wait a minute, you don’t need a gun. I’m here just to figure out what is going on, no need to fucking shoot anyone.”

“What if I want to shoot someone? What if I want to shoot you?”

“Then I can’t stop you, crazy people do what they please in this world.”

“I tell you what Alex, you can ask me questions, but for every question you ask me, I’ll ask you one. If I don’t like your answer, I shoot you.”

“That doesn’t sound fair.”

“Your world isn’t fair.”

“What did you want to know from Lucy?”

“Isabelle raised her with strange notions about our kind. I wanted to know what those notions were and why she was taught them.”

“Is that it?”

“Is that another questions?”

“No!”

“Are you going to.. blog.. more of the interview and is there more about Lucy’s view on our kind?”

“Yeah I’ll probably type the rest up, but no, we really didn’t talk about anything like that afterward. Why are Lucy’s “Strange Notions” so important to you?”

“Because they could lead to lost ideas. Things no one has heard about in a few decades. What is Isabelle’s trying to do with you and your website?”

“I don’t know”

BANG. That is the first time he shot me. It just grazed my leg and my reaction knocked me out of the chair and onto the floor. I was more scared than hurt. I started screaming “oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck” but realized it was only a slight cut pretty quickly. Johnny and Other dude were smirking, trying not to laugh. Boss was standing in the exact same position, a fucking statue with a warm gun.

“Although I think you are correct that you don’t know, I didn’t like your answer.”

“so you shoot me even if you are disappointed?”

“yes. Why did you agree to work for Isabelle?”

“Fuck, this isn’t over yet? Shit.” I sat up on the floor, kind of grateful of the cardboard being down there. “I have nothing better to do. I’d been following Jesus for a few years.. not following following but just trying to figure shit out. Nothing brilliant just trying to figure shit out.” He didn’t respond with the gun or his mouth. “So everything Lucy told me is false?”

“Most likely, although in my years I have learned to not disregard legend. What made you so I can not persuade you?”

“I have no fucking clue.”

Then he shot me in my stomach. It felt like that area was getting hammered by a truck. I fell back onto the floor and was in too much pain to really pay attention to what happened next. I have this impression of Boss saying something to Johnny and the other dude, before I blacked out but I was so much in shock that I was shot that I have no clue if I remembered that correctly.

Wednesday, 3 June 2015

Sunday Part One

I’m right in the middle of a fucking information war. You’d think I would be used as one of the guns in this war but I’m not. I’m being used as a nail in one great big house of blood and bile. I could of tried harder to update this blog before now but you know what, I hate being a tool. I almost didn’t return to it, but I also hate being a quitter. I hate a lot, if you haven’t noticed. Hate is something that comes easy to me. I’m like a mother fucking Sith Lord, I’m so full of it. Vampires give me so many reasons to hate, but you know what, fuck them. They wish they could be half as awesome as they think they are. I’m going to use this blog to light-saber their asses.

I wrote that earlier. I think maybe I need to get my emotions under control but in the spirit of openness I’m leaving it at the head of this post because at least it is honest somewhere.

Sunday Night, I left my loft like I said I would. Like they knew I would, obviously from reading the blog. My thoughts were kind of a mess. Why was I suppose to write this? What was Isabelle’s master plan? Vampires are like a slow molasses made of pure refined plotting. They move so damn slow you forget they are even moving sometimes. The attack the other day was fast and seemed rash on the outside but you bet that it is part of a long term scheme. This blog is part of a long term scheme. I know they will never tell me what is really going on. Fucking vampires.

Too bad vampires also seem to think that humans are stupid. I think if they ever had to face humans in mass they’d lose simply because of that. They think they are so superior that they overlook us. I realized after talking to Lucy that they can come back and erase from us what they don’t want us to recall so they don’t really think to do a lot of preventative steps. They collect information and then debate forever what to do about it. Once they decide they come in with their vamp magic and do what they do. Erase minds, enslave souls, get hammered on power.

And I realized all this while drunk on vodka straight from the bottle, not even the good stuff. Eat that haters.

I left my loft determined to find Isabelle and Lucy and have them lay out their cards. After all what is the point of being a vampire reporter if there is nothing to report.

I should of known that something had changed on the back end of this mystery when the cop was gone when I walked outside. Also it had stopped raining. The Gods must of been trying to tell me something.

Then I spent the next night traveling to all the places I knew to look for vampires but no luck. No luck at all. I could of screamed, and I did end up punching a mail box. Remind me not to punch metal when angry. I must of looked like a fool holding my nearly broken hand in the middle of Westport.

Shit finally started hitting the fan when I stumbled back into my loft. I was so exhausted from nothing happening that finding Lucy curled up in my bed, her clothing soaked in blood and her skin dry and shriveled on her bones, made me feel like cheering. Of course I didn’t. Lucy had been nice to me the last few days so I immediately switched into caring mode.

She could barely talk. Whatever power she has must of healed any damage that had been done to her but it took a toll on her. I helped her get into the closet, but I was not about to let her have any of my blood. She never asked for it.

Once safe in the closet she looked up at me and told me what had happened in this soft and defeated voice. I had to get close to hear her.

“They are not after you. They consider you just another vampire fan writing a blog that no one will read.”

“well they got part of that right” I tried to make Lucy laugh, and it almost worked.

“They came for me because of what I said in the interview. They took me to some warehouse. A warehouse. It was like a a a bad movie. They thought I knew some kind of secrets, some kind..of.. magic or something. It was so confusing. They beat me and bled me when I didn’t know what to tell them.”

“why did they let you go?”

“I think they are waiting… waiting to see if Isabelle comes to me. Waiting for you to write about this so she comes. I think they think she knows a secret or something that they want…I’m so confused.”

Which dear reader is one reason you haven’t heard from me. I’m not going to write something to help out anyone. Sorry.

Lucy seemed to be falling asleep as the sun started to rise. Good for her, she needed her rest. I need something also. I needed answers.

“Lucy, what warehouse?”

Then she gave me the address. Not the actual address, she gave me the street number, said it was really big on a blue overhang above the door. Said it was in the East Bottoms near Knuckleheads Saloon. Good enough for me.

Monday, 1 June 2015

June 1st 2015

In her interview Lucy talks a lot about groups of vampires with different ideologies who struggle with each other from time to time. Even going so far as to call this town ‘hard’. I think what she meant to say was “Oh Alex this town is filled with psychopathic shit talkers with the power of gods who still like to shoot people for fun”. I mean the shear idea that shooting people is a useful tool when you have that type of power speaks more to their psychosis than it does to anything else.

Which is my way of saying that I’m not happy about being shot.

Just thought I’d log on and update those few actual people who read this. I’m not going to go into details until I know for sure that I have a way out of my hidey-hole. I’m currently safe, will update as soon as I can.

Saturday, 30 May 2015

May 30th 2015

Lucy didn’t make it back to my loft last night. I didn’t get much work done on transcribing the interview because I was too busy drinking vodka and jumping at every little noise that presented itself. The cops are back. I’m starting to feel paranoid. All these years dealing with Jesus and friends and I haven’t felt like this. You’d think being around people who want to drain you of your blood would be enough to produce these feelings, but nope. I must have a thick head, that or what is said is true, it is what you don’t see that freaks you out the most. Fuck this. If she isn’t back tonight I’m leaving this loft.

Lucy Interview Part Two

Alex: So what exactly is a vampire?

Lucy: I’m not sure what you are asking.

Alex: Can you explain in plain words what it means to be a vampire? What exactly makes you different from the rest of us?

Lucy: Since your post last week where you mentioned ‘living vampires’ I have been doing a lot of thinking about that actually. I had no idea that there were humans like that, and you know what, they don’t seem to be wrong. I was reading how some of them believe that people have a life force, an energy, and the most concentrated form of that energy is found in the blood. That sounds about right. That these living vampires take that energy from others in various ways including the drinking of blood. Which is pretty interesting.

We are not far from that really, except we need the blood to exist, and the blood or energy forces our bodies and minds to be able to do extra ordinary things.

Alex: That is interesting, I just thought of those people as losers. Wonder if there is a historical or actual connection to the two groups.

Lucy: Wouldn’t that be a riot.

Alex: What have you been doing with yourself since becoming a vampire? It’s been nearly twenty years?

Lucy: I’ve been doing what anyone would do. Trying to survive. This town is hard. Our culture here is spread out and diverse. Unlike bigger cities, there are very few covens.. There isn’t an official word for it as far as I know, I just like coven. Maybe it is my love of teenage witch movies! Whatever the word would be it would be groups of us with the same way of doing things. In the bigger cities I hear they have more structure, more law. Here it is still kinda the wild west. It can be hard.

Alex: What do you mean by hard?

Lucy: I’ve been lucky since Isabelle is one of the older ones in the city, and she took me under her wing. (she thinks for a moment) There was this one guy once. He came from outside the city and I saw him down in Westport trying to pick up some really skanky looking girl. This was before the power and light district, before the hipster whiskey bars mind you. The next night Isabelle showed me what remained of him. Nothing but a small box of ash. She said that you “have to be mindful of those who watch, and who they server”. She didn’t burn the guy I guess, just another group that didn’t like poachers.

Alex: You are saying that in this city you can be a lone vamp but you have to tread carefully because there really isn’t any agreement between the groups that do control territory, no laws?

Lucy: Yeppa, totally it.

Alex: Besides gang turf what makes these ‘covens’ come together?

Lucy: Ideology I think. Historical ideas about how we came to be, or theories on our place in the world. For example, Isabelle believes that we are a dominate… I hate to say race, but sure we can say race. She believes we are a dominant race and that your people are more like cattle. Your minds are weak, your bodies are weak, and your blood is power. Although she is kind of an animal rights activist in ways, she has taught me to never play with my food. Although she would not say it like that. Humans to her are dignified, even if they are lesser creatures. On the flip side, those that burned the poor vamp I was talking about. They believe that we must live in secret, and only use our abilities around each other, never on humans unless we have to in order to cover our existence. They kinda creep me out to be honest. They are always spying on each other making sure their belief systems are not broken.

Alex: Are those the two biggest ideologies?

Lucy: Oh no, there are as many different theories as there are vampires I imagine. For example I’m technically and socially in Isabelle’s camp but I really don’t give a shit about theory, ideas, or philosophy. I’m a kinda do what you want type of person. I just don’t like stepping on toes. I only side against someone if they are complete assholes. Like every so often we get a group that just likes havoc. Then I’m all torches and claws on those bitches.

Alex: In larger cities then, these groups are codified? Controlled?

Lucy: That is what I hear, but I wouldn’t know.

Alex: So this blog is really going to make one of these groups mad then?

Lucy: I think so, but I could be wrong.

Alex: That reminds me, why the hell do vampires love popular vampire culture, like movies and books? I’m about ready to punch the next one that quotes something stupid at me.

Lucy: I’m not sure. I think we all like watching and reading that stuff. I mean one of my biggest influences as a teenager was watching Interview with a Vampire! When I was made I constantly thought about that movie and how when Louis is transformed the world opens up to his senses just like it did to mine. It helped me identify with what was happening to me. We are interested in the popular concepts of what we are but I also think in a way it defines us. As we become more of what we are it is proven time and time again that we become more like the media than we care to admit. Isabelle has lots of theories on that. That is why she doesn’t watch or listen to any of that ‘mind trash’ as she calls it.

Alex: Did you have any other references that helped you with the transition?

Lucy: I played a bit of vampire the masquerade in college. LARP style. I would think about the clans in that and wonder which one I would most be like. I still can’t decide actually, Brujah maybe, Toreador maybe, although my art would be doing my nails and picking out vintage band t shirts! Total poser.

Alex: Someone on twitter asked if you ever played that. I guess vampires are defined by that game in way.

Lucy: Not really. I mean the guy who wrote it was pretty on to something, and whoever did the later editions had an attitude that was pretty rockin. It makes it hard for me to talk about what we are cause I’m so tempted to use the terms they coined. Domain is pretty spot on for example. I just wish we had clans, that would be cool. I guess we kinda have bloodlines. The person that made you or teaches you can really influence how you bloom in a way, but they are not as big of an influence as your own mind.

Alex: So you can really influence the monster you become?

Lucy: I’m not a monster! (she makes a cute face to back up that statement and then laughs). If you are taught how to control yourself than yeah, it becomes a choice. The more you choose to be a monster the more of a monster you become, just like Isabelle said. If you don’t realize you have a choice then you will make those choices on a level that you are unaware of and before you know it, you’re totally fucked.

Friday, 29 May 2015

Lucy Interview Part One

Lucy and I decided to open more wine and have ourselves a little interview. Isabelle’s rules are in full effect which means typing up my scribbled hand written notes into this blog might take time. Why didn’t I just type them into the computer while doing the interview instead of using short hand (which I hadn’t used since college)? Because it’s fucking impersonal to stare at your device while doing an interview that is why. Deal with it.

We started the interview at 9pm on Thursday May 28th.

Alex: State your name and tell me a bit about yourself.

Lucy: Rules! First question and you are trying to break the rules.

Alex: Fine, just tell me about yourself.

Lucy: Hi my name is Lucy and I’m a vampire.

Alex: Fuck you, this isn’t AA.

Lucy: I don’t know what to say, that pretty much dominates your life once it happens to you.

Alex: So who were you before it happened to you?

Lucy: Oh, umm, I don’t know. I mean I know but I hadn’t thought about it much. I imagine it is just as bad as asking you who you were as a teenager. Except I don’t really want to return to those days.

Alex: You still look like you are in those days.

Lucy: Really? I always look twenty two to myself. That is how old I was when I stopped aging.

Alex: When you were changed?

Lucy: No, when I stopped aging. I was nineteen when I was changed.

Alex: Explain that. Vampires are eternal are they not?

Lucy: Yeah as far as I know, but not all of us stop aging, at least not at first.

Alex: So there are vampires who look 100 years old?

Lucy: No, well maybe. I imagine if they wanted to go that long they could. I’m not sure. For some of us aging is a choice, and for others we stop because “our subconscious controls our bloods expression” as Isabelle would put it. For me it was that.

Alex: That is interesting, does that expression vs choice factor anywhere else into being a vampire?

Lucy: Yeah I think so. I think it might be what it is all about. Being a vampire. Our blood says one thing and we say another, and whatever side wins takes the prize. At least for that one thing.

Alex: I’m not sure I follow but I’ll come back to it once I have a better idea what to ask. Can you tell me how you were ‘changed’ and is that the word for it?

Lucy: HA! You really want us to have a lexicon don’t you? There isn’t a set word for it. At least not that I know of. The old ones have their Cant and I’m sure there is a word or words for it in that non sense but I don’t know what it is.

Alex: Cant?

Lucy: Yeah, some language they all speak. It sounds like Latin but with a French flair. Kinda like you should be in church but sexy at the same time. I don’t know, I’ve never been offered to be let on that secret. Anyways, how was I made? Right?

There was this guy in college named Mike. Of course I’m making that name up. Rules are rules. Mike was the hottest thing since sliced bread, and come to find out a campus vampire. I know you like using the most cheesy terms for us, do you like that campus vampire?

Alex: That is cute, it should be an 80s movie title!

Lucy: No kidding! Mike was the type of vampire that liked to pretend that he was in college and hang out at the places all the kids hung out. He had this really deep knowledge of just about everything, and a way with the ladies. I was no exception. I was head over heels for him. Spent all my free time with him and started to neglect my studies so I could stay up all night with him. He on the other hand spent all his time with me, and he professed that it had been ages since he was so attached to someone.

(Lucy stares off out the window for a bit, then comes back to the interview)

I’m not sure if I’m more sad about my emotions for him or how he dropped me like a piece of garbage after it happened. Our kind are petty creatures at times. We are territorial to an extreme, and when I say territorial I mean actual physical area. The more area you control the more potential blood you control. It is that simple. You pretty much said it yourself, it is all about the blood.

Mike and this other vampire, we’ll call him Steve, were having some big fight over a quarter of a block of territory. Some gas station or something off of 50th street, near Brookside Blvd. It was so not worth anything at the time, but territory is territory, and all is fair in love and war. I’m a casualty of that war. Steve kidnapped me and turned me into a vampire against my will, before I knew that vampires were real. He then dropped me off at Mikes place.

One look at what happened to me and Mike shut me out. Slammed the door actually, said I was tainted and spit on me. Isabelle would later say that Mike was a ‘traditionalist’ and didn’t understand ‘the universal characteristics of who we are’, when trying to make me feel better about it. I don’t know what she was talking about.

Alex: How did you survive?

Lucy: Well the change is slow. Sometimes it takes weeks, sometimes it takes hours, it really depends on the person involved. For me I had no clue what was going on, and wondered around sick for a few days. Out of my mind. I blamed it on being raped and then spit on by my boyfriend. That is essentially how it came across in my rationality. Steve raped me and then because of that Mike left me. Isabelle found me. She took me in and made sure that I wasn’t a threat to myself or anyone else.

Alex: Did you ever have to deal with them again?

Lucy: Yeah, they are around, or they were last time I checked.

Alex: Was Mike feeding on you during your time together?

Lucy: He must of been. Why else would he of been with me.

Alex: But you don’t know?

Lucy: We have ways of shifting perceptions away from us. I mean there is the direct mind control that everyone hates you for not falling for but that is just one expression of a greater ability to influence the perceptions and will of those around us. I think Mike was really good at making me have great sex. I mean great sex. Man I still get… I get bothered by thinking about it.

Alex: Am I the only one that it doesn’t work on, and does it work on other vamps?

Lucy: As far as Isabelle has told me you are the only one she has ever encountered who naturally is immune to our evil ways. Vampires can try to control each other but its a struggle, humans however are weak and easily led anyway we want.

Thursday, 28 May 2015

May 28th 2015

Now it is Thursday. I spent Tuesday in Jail and Wednesday trying to clean the blood off my carpet. Spent some time updating this blog last night and this morning as you can see. Good week.

Jail was kind interesting. That cop outside my window saw the man run out with the knife in his neck believe it or not, and followed the blood up to my apartment. I told him it was breaking and entering but he took me down to the station where they proceeded to not question me until they released me Wednesday morning. They didn’t even apologize or give me a reason. I’m not a lawyer but I think my rights just got trampled. At least the station isn’t too far from my loft, so I could walk home.

Lucy said it was all politics. Her peoples politics and that I wouldn’t find a record of it if I did try to sue. Fucking vampires.

Anyways, Lucy and I are going to do her interview tonight. Hopefully over the next few days I can transcribe it and post it up here if nothing else gets in the way. I plan on asking her just about every detail I can dream up about her ‘people’. If I have any readers, you are more than welcome to post questions in the comments and I’ll ask them also!

Still not sign of Jesus.

May 25th 2015

Monday I drug my hung over and sleep deprived ass out of bed, got showered and went to find out if I still had a job. I completely forgot it was a holiday. I borrowed Lucy’s car, drove all the way there to find the place packed full of customers. Adam, the boss, had no time to officially fire me, but he made it known that I needed to get out. That’s alright, I hate retail work anyway. I’m a bit too honest about the products I’m selling.

When I got back to the car Isabelle was waiting for me. She looked really striking in the daylight. Her skin was pale but full of life, and if she happened to move, she looked almost like a real person. Freaky still with her lack of animation when not engaged in movement.

“It is good that we can start to not pretend.” she said, with a forced smile as she stood stiff as a board next to the car.

“sure thing boss.”

“the website, it does not have the… reach that we want. You need to promote it on your social networks.”

“you came out in the day to tell me to get a twitter account?”

“Yes, and the facebook. Also you need to be more of a journalist, and less of a daily web blogger. Lucy is there to talk to you and you spend time watching television about a vampire slayer. I expected better.”

“well I expected not to be locked in my house!” I said with a slightly raised voice as I turned to unlock the car. When I turned back she was gone. Typical vampire shit.

On the drive back I decided I’d do it. As soon as Lucy woke up I’d sit her down and interview her, real proper like. Finally answer some questions about her and her kind. Isabelle pretty much was calling me lazy and she was right.

That is when I noticed the cop car following me. Seriously. I made random turns to make sure. They were always back there. I started to worry a bit more, specially when I pulled up to my loft and realized it was not the one outside my house, but another one. The one outside was still there, and the man watched me pull into my parking garage.

Fucking creepy.

Instead of going back to bed like I should of I decided to get drunk. I’ve always been that way. When times get stressful, I drink. It never really impacts my life since I do it in my ‘free time’. Problem with getting drunk as a means of relaxation in times of stress is that in times of stress you can’t predict what the hell will happen.

Which is why I didn’t predict that Julian would come knocking on my door. Very quiet knocks for sure, so I have no clue how long he was rapping before I heard it and wobbled over. I flung open the door thinking I’d get a chance to yell out some brilliant church person who figured out how to get int he building, but instead I got a face full of Julian. He didn’t really look like Julian Sands but enough to make me think about it. Enough to make me think of that Tale of a Vampire movie. As my name is Alex I had to use the actors name, sue me.

I blink and say “Why do all you vamps remind me of vampire movies. Maybe I’m the crazy one.” It didn’t even occur to me how I knew he was a vampire. Still don’t know. It just seemed to make sense.

Then he locked me with those ‘do what I say’ eyes that all these assholes get when talking to me and said, “Unlock the window and jump out of it”. That is when it hit me. That look they get, they are all trying to mind rape me. To do the vampire magic on me. In my drunk state I stood there mulling this new revelation over not saying a word. The poor vampire seemed confused. So he tried again.

“I want you to go jump out the window.” Which of course made this whole situation more humorous. So I did what any sane person would do, I started to laugh. I think somewhere in my laughter I invited him in for some wine. I mean it was so bad I had to hold the wall to not fall over. Drunk, laughing, it was kind of a crazy moment. I should of been aware of the danger I was in, but I wasn’t.

I didn’t even see Julian move before he had me pinned to the floor, fangs all out about to bite me. I just kept laughing. It was like some bad replay of Jesus and I’s last encounter but this time I knew why he was always so pissed, and probably why Isabelle put me up for this job.

Lucky for me Julian didn’t notice Lucy with the chef’s knife until it was sticking out of his neck. For the second time in just a few short minutes he looked shocked. At first there was a spray a blood that landed all so nicely on my carpet and my face, but it stopped before he even got out the door.

I was still laughing. Lucy was standing over me like a guard dog and somehow I managed to say, “I hope he returns the knife!”

Then Lucy started laughing also.